The alleyway was one block over from my house in Mckinley Heights. Once a sought after neighborhood nestled between Soulard and Lafayette Square, the poverty and crime of the Gravois Industrial corridor kept rent low at a cost. This was 2015 and this project was just breaking ground in becoming… what it became and…Kendra was one of the first Death Purges.
The dumpster wasn’t very full, but had the select items of an incriminate purge. I took the coffee mug, the Christmas house and the Metal duck, while all the paperwork ended up in sealed tub, that hasn’t seen the light of day until 2021 when the Scrapbook of Kendra’s life ended up being made.
How to tell the story of Kendra has always been a problem? She didn’t leave much of a Digital imprint as online Searches found little and how do you tell the story of Social Worker, whose paperwork reflected her children, more than herself. As far as I could find, she died shortly after her husband, both suffering health issues and left no biological heirs. Is her story, the impact she had on the foster children, or the way the bills piled up after her husband died? Was it a social welfare system with it’s complicated edges?
What spoke to me were the little notes of inspirations, the way she bettered herself and those she loved. Those quotes and moments of faith, which inspire me. If this is her Biomythographeology. The legend of Kendra the care giver is one inspiration and love.
December 28 — Unhappiness is not knowing what we want and killing ourselves to get it.
“Can i continue to live in lack and limitation, denying myself the abundant goodness of the world? Or can I make a plan, follow a dream, do what I can, where I am, with what I have? Can I? Can I? Can I continue to buy into the belief that there is not enough, I am not enough, settling for whatever I can get? Or can I do my best in every situation, expecting the best from every situation, recognizing that what I put out must come back to me tenfold? Can I? Can OKIE I? Can I continue to live in fear, complaining about what I do not have, cannot do, criticizing myself and others? Or can I take a chance, find an opportunity and know in my heart what I want to do is possible? Can I? Can I? Can I blame the world, hate my enemy, feel sorry for myself as an excuse not to do what I desire to do? Or can I raise my consciousness, pour love into every situation and take responsibility for my self? Can I? Can I? Can you?”
Don’t Play God For Other People
The other side of the coin of self responsibility in the awareness that other people need to have the responsibility of directing their own life. Untold miseries, frustration and suffering come to us when we try to play God in someone else’s life. If we truly love someone we learn to trust their own capacity.
For growth and self-direction , we take hold of them by our loving concern, but we let go of them by our wise detachment. We must let them experience life and lean from the consequences of their choices. If we are constantly snooping advising or rescuing them. They will have no opportunity to gain the confidence
strength of standing on their on feet.
“If we do not learn how to wisely let go of others than we easily fall into the trap of contaminating our prayer life by demanding that God make them into the exact kind of person we think they should be!
And we frustrate ourselves terribly while waiting for God to do it. How much much wiser it is to give people over to God’s loving care.”
Perhaps they do need to change and grow, perhaps we are even correct what we believe needs to happen in their Lives. Even so we can never them to be what we think they should be This only builds frustration and resentment. We can only turn to Gods care, trusting that God will them to find the right direction for their lives whether and or agree with that direction.
Here and then is the man can responsibility only for my life In regard to others lam sell them how about their life or behavior but I can never change the should I foo responsible to do so I can exercise my faith by trusting God to word our lives.
The Four Agreements are:
- Be Impeccable With Your Word.
- Don’t Take Anything Personally.
- Don’t Make Assumptions.
- Always Do Your Best.